Monday, April 15, 2013

Let's begin again...

I don't even know where to begin to catch up with this blog.

Husband is finally coming.

I have bounced around a lot in the last two years. I am still living out of a suitcase. I cannot seem to settle. I have been on and off this island so much, and it is looking like I have to leave again.

Husbo wants to live near family. I get that. He has an Aunt, Uncle, and cousin in the Pacific Northwest city that I lived in for 8 years and he wants to live there while he gets used to my country. I get it, but it doesn't make it easier for me. I left that city for this island because the weather almost killed me. I just got back 5 months ago, found a beautiful studio with a view of the ocean, and started two new jobs. Now he wants me to pack up and move. I am dragging my feet and just feeling so torn.

I have to be a good wife, right? Compromise and all of that? Ugh.

But, I have to admit, the opportunities for teaching yoga and learning to be a better teacher will be much better on the mainland. I have been teaching about 2 classes a week here and it is going well,but I am a bit stuck. The owners are not on island, and most of the teachers don't practice, so I really don't get any feedback or mentoring. It is nice to have the space to get comfortable with teaching and challenge myself in certain ways, but I know that if I am to get better, then I have to go somewhere else.

So I gotta go, right? I have two months to decide.

I am very excited at having him with me in my country. There is so much to show him! After years of being a single wife, with a relationship mostly through Skype and FB chat, it will be nice to actually live our lives at the same time and place. Everything is about to change.

I am so ridiculously nervous and terrified of making the wrong decisions. What is best for all parties?

How will this work so that both of us will be happy?

The next few months will be a strange time of anticipation, transition, and adjustment.